August 25, 2016
My husband is 52 and went to visit a Bible College because He believe the Lord was calling him in the ministry and He want to be obedient to that call.After the visit, he fell apart.He said it was like being struck by lightning..He is now in intensive outpatient therapy for anxiety, confusion, depression, hopelessness and deep pain that never goes away.These are the symptoms of PTSD that he has carried for the past 30 years and have never gone away, only they've became so bad just recently that he feels he cannot work.He needs hope and healing.He is so tired from this illness and he's very discouraged about his future.He said " if I can't carry myself well, how can I possibly expect to carry a congregation- even a small one? If the Lord wants me in the ministry, I have to get better."We are getting medical attention from christian counselor,therapy and medication.We are praying for his deliverance, relief from symptoms of constant deep emotional pain and paralyzing anxiety.This also limits intimacy because he was sexually abused as a child and it's very hard for him to trust.God bless you as you lift our brother in prayer.Thank you very much
August 25, 2016
I stand on that and the Word of God that it is a promise that will come to pass by faith. So as you read my prayer request I unite with your requests. My prayer requests are the ones that are important and imminent for the rest of the year 2016. First and foremost Salvation for my son, his daugthers and my immidiate family. Strong hedge of protection and guidence over them. As for myself, mature female finishing last semester of school, may all go smoothly, absorb and learn all my classes and do will in every assignment, give me favor with fellow students and prof. no holds or blocks of any kind as I file for graduation to finish by Dec 31st 2016. All grants and loans over due to be processed by Sept which was due early Aug. Employment by January with companies I am sending resumes to, permanent and job security. I turn the big 5-0 on 8/31 renew me like the eagle LordGod and grant me a private unspoken request on my birthday.
August 25, 2016
I don't understand why God bless my younger sister with marriage before me. It is not fair. My whole life my sister has gotten everything before me. She always got what she wanted by our dad and step mom. She was so spoiled. I was the one that was always left out and I never got want I wanted. I am tired of seeing my sister getting everything that happens to her before me. I feel like God loves my sister more than me and that is why she got married first. I feel like God hates me and doesn't know how much I want marriage of being a wife and a mom. Good things never happen to me only to my sister. The best is not yet to come in my life. I feel like God doesn't want me to be happy and He doesn't want to bless me with my first kiss, first date, a husband, marriage, sex, having a baby. I want my first kiss so much but feel like God doesn't want me to ever experience my first kiss. I want to know what kissing feels like. I hate that I am 26 and never been kissed. Why is God doing this to me all this waiting? Does God not know how much I would love my first kiss and to go on a date? I want to be a wife and a mom so much. I am so tired of being lonely without a man and would love to be married. My sister is so lucky to be married. Everyone who is married is so lucky to have a life partner and they are never alone. They don't have to do life alone.
August 11, 2016
Please pray for me. I am tired of my life. It is just so boring. Pray that my life gets more busy and I have more opportunities to serve God and keep Him first in my life. Everyday of my life seems like it is the same old nothing different or exciting ever happens in my life.
August 18, 2016
Please pray for me that God blesses me with a job. I need a job. I have only had one part time job before and I never had a full time job. Pray that God leads me to the right job. I don't really have enough experience for a job. I don't know what to do or what God is calling me to be. I have lots of fear inside of me and afraid of interviews and don't really know how to do a resume. I wish I could start my life over and get a different degree other than elementary education. I am the wrong type of person for the job of teaching too shy and quiet and never starts conversations with others. I love kids but feel like I am the wrong fit for being a teacher. I am going to fail and never succeed. Teaching is a lot of work that I never really realized. I never taught kids before. I have been an aide in sunday school before but never the teacher. I don't think I can do it. What a mistake my life is. I have no purpose. What is God's plans for my life. I don't know if I can get a full time job other than being a teacher with my degree. I wish I would of thought of my future a lot better when I was in high school. This is not how I thought my life would turn out. I don't want to have to go to grad school and get my teaching credential. I wish I could get a full time job besides being a teacher. I wish I could start my life over and hit the rewind button. I really need a job with lots of benefits especially for health insurance. Right now I am so lost and confused and don't know what God wants me to do. I don't know if I have a calling from God anymore. I want to be a wife and a mom and those are wonderful callings but they still haven't come to pass in my life yet. I don't know what happened to me I used to have a desire to be a teacher when I was in high school but all of a sudden I am a changed person and it isn't in my heart to teach kids anymore it isn't my passion anymore. Does God really have plans for my life and future? I just feel like a nobody and a loser and I really messed my life up. Choosing a career is a huge life decision and I totally messed it all up. I wasn't thinking and now I have to paid the consequences of student loans paying them off which I have no idea how I will do that and being a teacher which I don't want to be anymore. Praying that God provides me a job and a way and leads me on the right direction again for my life. There is something wrong with me. I just wish I could be a wife and a stay at home mom but I just don't have that option right now in my life. Being an elementary teacher used to be my dream but not anymore. My dream is to be a wife and a mom. I am scared of the credential program. It is going to be really hard and a lot of work. I am scared that I will fail and never get my credential or I get a bad teacher placement to work with. I don't really know how to do lesson plans. I am really scared of my life and future.