June 19, 2013
For a while now, I have felt this sense of dread at work. I felt I was in danger of losing my position (not my job). Well, I was correct. I am hurt and I am angry, but I know that there is no wasted hurt and that God is not trying to give me pain. I am pretty sure he would like me to get over my anger, and I am trying. The anger swells and then abates. Right now I am just hurt and hoping that God will swiftly direct me to His plan and His purpose in this. I know that even when I am in doubt, He is at work. I know that he has a special purpose and a plan for my life. I do not want to get in the way. Would you please pray for me. I am really at a loss and still have to tell my family. I don't know if I have the strength to share this without bawling. My heart is broken and frankly I feel kind of betrayed. Thank you so much.
June 19, 2013
I have been so angry lately. I can't seem to calm my mind and spirit. Anger towards my supervisor for the job where I will soon be ending my position, angry at my body because of the pain and illness that doesn't let me do what I need or want to do, angry at myself because I am not the mom I should be to my 9 year old. I need to figure out how to let go of this. I don't know what to do with this anger. I don't want it to hurt me or my daughter or our lives.
June 19, 2013
God, I'm not feeling as joyful today. Please, God, help me to meet some good positive single people that I can get to know and spend time with. I don't want to always be alone God. I get a little discouraged because the only people I seem to be around are people who are either married or in relationships and/or have kids. I have none of that God. But on that note God, please help me to find the right person for me. It seems like there isn't a person out there who has been waiting as long as I have, not that I have really tried to meet someone but that's only because I've been told over and over that if you stop looking, that's when you'll find someone. Well I can stop looking and for me, it still doesn't happen. Maybe my faith isn't so strong in that area. Please help me in all areas God! And as for A, please watch over him and take care of him, bless him and open up his heart. Please help him to be happy and give him your grace. Please let him feel peace and joy and not crankiness. I miss making him laugh. But it seems like I probably won't hear from him again, and I'm moving on, slowly. Thank you for my friend E. Please help me to not be jealous God, and to be happy for other people's blessings. Right now, I feel like I'm kind of faking it. Please help me to continue remaining patient. And God, please tell me what I can do for you.
June 19, 2013
Please pray for me to not be over anxious or over confident at my job interview. I'm praying I can relax and be myself and let them see that I would be the right fit for this position. I really need this job. Please also pray I do well on the testing. I'm not good with tests. God Bless You. Thank you.