August 31, 2014
I am a 17 yr old girl and I have struggled with overeating my entire life. I have always been heavy, and though I never let it show, it has always bothered me. When I was 13 I was a t summer camp and we were doing an activity that required running, I could hardly breathe. The girl next to me innocently said "You don't run much do you?" I was so offended and ashamed. I was 180lbs and 5'8" at the time. I then made the decision to lose weight. I began very healthily, watching portions and walking the dog 30mins a day, and was able to lose 10lbs(my goal was 20lbs). Then when I turned 15 my family found out my dad, who just had turned 50, had stage 2 pancreatic cancer. I remember feeling nothing. I have always loved my dad, he was great, but he struggled with his faith his whole life, and I never had a very close relationship with him. The next 6 months I started walking the dog more often in order to get away from the house, there was a lot of tension in the house. My mom is a nurse and disagreed with some of the treatments that were happening and my dad was in denial. He was also doing at home hospice and I didn't like being there. Anyway, I started to refocus on losing weight, mainly as a distraction, but also to be as healthy as possible with cancer now in my medical history. My dad was diagnosed in March 2013 and died on Oct. 21, 2013. It hurt, but I wasn't immobilized like in the movies, life went on and I felt so bad about that. I had lost another 10 lbs over the summer/fall and continued to try to lose weight, even though I had reached my goal. I felt better then ever physically, but I didn't look the way I wanted yet. In December(156lbs 5'9") I was diagnosed with Diabetes Insipidus. It's a chronic illness that has to do with the way your body holds onto fluid. Then I graduated high school a year early in late-March and we moved in mid-April. Stress started piling up and I started controlling the one thing I could, my weight. I lost a total of 58lbs and was down to 122lbs 5'9 3/4" at my lowest in June 2014, when my mom caught wind of what was happening. I saw a counselor for a while and started healthily gaining a little weight back, but then unhealthily. I started binge eating basically everyday in July and continue even now. I have gained a lot of weight back now, though I haven't been allowed to weight myself so I don't know how much. I feel so lost and hopeless, this entire thing has made me feel alone and numb to God's voice. I know all the answers and everything that you learn in church, and I know what I'm supposed to say, but I can't feel God anymore. I don't know how to reconnect and I don't know how to stop binge eating. I just don't even know if I care anymore. Please pray for my health, head, and heart. And most importantly that I could surrender myself fully back to God and regain the purpose and fulfillment in my life. Thank You.
August 29, 2014
Thank you for praying for us. Our eldest son and grandson have found housing but he is still planning on living with his girlfriend. Our youngest son who was charged with possession and paraphernalia has his court date soon. We have always prayed, "Whatever it takes, Lord, bring them to you." Pray for wisdom for us, protection for our sons and grandsons from the evil one and that our prodigals would come back to Jesus. Many thanks.
August 20, 2014
Please pray for my son who suffers with mental illness. He is always fighting with someone, now it is the police. He is going to court tomorrow to file a restraining order against the police dept. He is ruining his life and making it more difficult for himself. Nobody can reason with him. I am so scared. I'm afraid he is going to end up in jail. He has a terrible temper and lies continually. Please ask God to help him and hold him in his arms. Thank you for your prayer. God's not dead.
August 19, 2014
I have been struggling with anorexia and depression for too long now. I have always been a "Christian" but in the past year especially I felt like I lost God and I'm trying so hard to repair my relationship with him because I can't go on like this anymore. I have had so many suicidal thought that I would never act upon but life is just so hard and overwhelming and I'm trying to change through God but I just don't feel him. I'm trying to take a step towards him and I'm getting baptized for a second time as a re-commitment to him this week. Please pray that I would find God and develop a relationship with him.
August 18, 2014
All I can say is please pray for me and my family. I feel like it is all crashing down around me. I have had a life of hardship and have not lost my faith but I am exhausted. I can't keep up physically or mentally or financially. I am working two jobs and have seen so many miracles but satan keeps fighting me and my family and I am so tired of the struggle. I have in the trouble always had God's peace but that now feels removed and his presence distant.