August 31, 2014
I am a 17 yr old girl and I have struggled with overeating my entire life. I have always been heavy, and though I never let it show, it has always bothered me. When I was 13 I was a t summer camp and we were doing an activity that required running, I could hardly breathe. The girl next to me innocently said "You don't run much do you?" I was so offended and ashamed. I was 180lbs and 5'8" at the time. I then made the decision to lose weight. I began very healthily, watching portions and walking the dog 30mins a day, and was able to lose 10lbs(my goal was 20lbs). Then when I turned 15 my family found out my dad, who just had turned 50, had stage 2 pancreatic cancer. I remember feeling nothing. I have always loved my dad, he was great, but he struggled with his faith his whole life, and I never had a very close relationship with him. The next 6 months I started walking the dog more often in order to get away from the house, there was a lot of tension in the house. My mom is a nurse and disagreed with some of the treatments that were happening and my dad was in denial. He was also doing at home hospice and I didn't like being there. Anyway, I started to refocus on losing weight, mainly as a distraction, but also to be as healthy as possible with cancer now in my medical history. My dad was diagnosed in March 2013 and died on Oct. 21, 2013. It hurt, but I wasn't immobilized like in the movies, life went on and I felt so bad about that. I had lost another 10 lbs over the summer/fall and continued to try to lose weight, even though I had reached my goal. I felt better then ever physically, but I didn't look the way I wanted yet. In December(156lbs 5'9") I was diagnosed with Diabetes Insipidus. It's a chronic illness that has to do with the way your body holds onto fluid. Then I graduated high school a year early in late-March and we moved in mid-April. Stress started piling up and I started controlling the one thing I could, my weight. I lost a total of 58lbs and was down to 122lbs 5'9 3/4" at my lowest in June 2014, when my mom caught wind of what was happening. I saw a counselor for a while and started healthily gaining a little weight back, but then unhealthily. I started binge eating basically everyday in July and continue even now. I have gained a lot of weight back now, though I haven't been allowed to weight myself so I don't know how much. I feel so lost and hopeless, this entire thing has made me feel alone and numb to God's voice. I know all the answers and everything that you learn in church, and I know what I'm supposed to say, but I can't feel God anymore. I don't know how to reconnect and I don't know how to stop binge eating. I just don't even know if I care anymore. Please pray for my health, head, and heart. And most importantly that I could surrender myself fully back to God and regain the purpose and fulfillment in my life. Thank You.
August 28, 2014
I have a 15 month old girl with hand foot and mouth disease, (highly contagious). While she seems to be on the mend, but still contagious and I am desperately trying not to let my 4 yr old son get sick. School starts in 5 days and I'd hate for him to miss this exciting time for him. We have been talking about it all summer. The have booth been at home with me for the last 7 days (both pulled from daycare during this contagious time. Not even sure if it was wise or not to pull my non-symptomatic son, but what if he was a non- symptomatic host?) and have another 4 days at home until. Husband and I have already missed work and we hate to miss more work if my son gets it finally as she is healing. Just praying my son doesn't get it (and us), causing him misery, missing school, and us missing more work, and/or potentially get others sick. Thanks
August 22, 2014
I have a really good chance to fly out to another state to get education (valuable education for work.)My boss said that she is sure that I will be able to go, but She also wished she didnt say anything because, nothing is promised at times. Please pray that things will go in GODS will and I will be able to be pleased to learn more to share with others! :D
August 20, 2014
Sigh---yet ANOTHER financial set-back--i keep a close eye on my checking acct. ysterday discoverd un-authorized acctivity on it. more money gone,. Not big, but to us it is. With me being the only income, w r having a hard enough time keeping st=ff paid! The amount was enough for food for a week!! Our CU is trying to work with us, but I hope I dont have to take tim off work to go there and change my accout ovr?? Didnt sleep last night all worried about this!!PLEAS PRAY THIS DOESNT HAPPEN AGAIN!!TYVM!! Linda
August 19, 2014
Thanks to everyone who prayed in response to my "Legal Issues" prayer request on 8/11. An update and another request ... My daughter's boyfriend was able to find good legal counsel. His immediate family could not afford a lawyer, but an aunt who lives out East was able to step in and help. So, prayer answered! He goes to court at 1:30 today. Again, please pray for a judge who will be balanced and compassionate. We're not asking for dismissal, but a reasonable verdict that takes into account good behavior for the last (almost) 2 years. Whatever the verdict, also pray that my daughter accepts the results and that God sends people into her life who will help her with direction and provide good advice to get her on a positive path. Sometimes I feel like she is so lost, or she gets started in the right direction, but then quickly gets off course. Thanks for all your prayers!