April 23, 2014
I posted a request the second week of April for prayer for going through a divorce and also a potential health issue..... I went in for my CT Scan and on the morning of Good Friday I was told I had Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia. This on top of my husband leaving & also going through a divorce after 31 years taking the only family I had with him..... Lord, Dear Lord... why is all this happening??? I don't think I can take anymore. Please, please keep praying..... Why do things seem to be getting worse?? I just don't understand any of this anymore. I am at the bottom of a very dark place. I know the only way now has got to be upward I hope, but it is getting very hard right now to keep my faith..... why do the good people have to suffer so much in situations like this?? If anyone could offer some kind words for me to help me get to a better place I would really appreciate it. Going through all of this alone without a family now is the worst. Dear Lord please help me...please lift me up & help me to turn my life around....I want to live and I want to make a better life for myself... thank you all once again for taking the time to read this and for all of your prayers over the past months...I cannot thank you enough,...hopefully someday soon I will see that light and things will begin to turn around & the prayers will start working to help me get through all of these trials..... in Jesus name I pray....Amen.
April 09, 2014
I have been divorced for five years now to a man whom I still love. Our second daughter will be getting married next year. I am still alone, and he will be bringing yet another one of his gf's. I am not to bring anyone, and I am afraid to travel all the way to the wedding alone. I am not an outgoing person, and will be there five days. I have been having regular panic attacks over this, experienced nightmares, have been fearful as well. The other thing is that my sleep is way out of sync - I cannot sleep until wee hours in the a.m. I used to never miss church, and now I have not gone except twice in the last two years or so. I never see hardly another person and spend too much time in my apt. I cannot get up in time for my bible study. I need a miracle in my life. Please, would you pray for me? My daughters do not want anything to do with me as they all side with their dad due to the divorce. He has the house and I have a low income apartment. I do not even have my little dog any more so am truly alone. I will just lie in bed and shake for hours, dreading the sunshine outside as I have nobody with which to spend it. Please, pray...