July 19, 2015
My wife and I have been separated since September after I committed a horrible sin which caused deep emotional pain for my wife and my stepdaughters. We have a 2 year old son whom my wife has only allowed me to see once since September. I repented immediately and have been seeking help via Christian counseling and Celebrate Recovery. God has really been working on me. My wife had indicated several months ago that she planned to divorce me. I temporarily moved 500 miles away to live with my brother since I was deeply depressed. I'm very concerned about my son because he needs me in his life. I don't know why she won't let me see him. In April, I volunteered to pay for supervised visitation (though it isn't necessary), so I could see my son--to which she agreed--but she has been dragging her feet and still hasn't signed up yet. I don't know if she's harboring resentment for me, or if it could be a legal maneuver to gain custody should we get divorced. I love my wife very much, and I desperately want God to restore our marriage and family. My motives, probably for the first time in my life, are pure. I could not be more repentant or remorseful for what I did. I want to love my wife the way Christ loved the Church, and I want to be there for my son--to teach him to love the Lord. I know that what I'm asking for is God's desired will. Please pray for the Holy Spirit to somehow reveal my true character and intentions to my wife and give her the will and desire to seek reconciliation and restoration of our marriage and family. Please pray that God would change the circumstances that hinder our restoration and our ability to live together. I have absolute confidence that He can restore us and bless us--no matter how impossible it may seem. In this case, it truly will take a miracle. The more people praying, the better. Thanks.