July 24, 2016
I'm a single mom of 2. My beautiful 18 year old daughter just left to go to college. She is only a couple hours away but I am really struggling with her being gone and not seeing her every day. We are very close and we still talk alot but I feel like I lost my best friend also. She's an amazing young woman and I am extremely proud of her but I also feel lost without her. My 11 year old son has been spending the summer with his dad because with my work hours, I have had a hard time finding a sitter for him. I miss them both so much. I feel extremely alone and depressed and find myself crying all the time. I have been trying to stay busy and find a hobby but I am really struggling with the loneliness. We originally moved here 3 years ago because I was seeing someone that I thought would be a good person for myself and my children but unfortunately, it didn't work out. He has a ton of issues of his own that he needs to work through so I am still single. I feel my purpose is to be a great mom to my children. I had hoped that God would send me a good christian man to be a good role model for my children so I am still waiting for that to happen but now with my daughter moving out and my son not here right now, I keep wondering what my purpose is. I am asking for prayer for my loneliness and for God to give me the clarity in my life so hopefully once again, I can feel like I'm going in the right direction and actually have a purpose.
July 14, 2016
Please pray for our Lord to perform a miracle in my wife's hardened heart. She wants to seperate/divorce. Through this I have grown closer to God. Yet, I have seen her grow more distant from Him. To the point where she can barely call herself christian when asked by our pastor. This goes against her core beliefs she has held her entire life. But why? That part is unclear. She is broken and feels that distancing herself from me is the answere. I feel otherwise. My faith is that God has made promises that have yet to be revealed and I am holding to those. Clinging. Fear is around every corner. Hurt. Brokeness. Yet the growth of my spirit is entirely because of where we are. God please help her. Help us. Resurect our marriage. Heal our brokeness. Wrap your loving arms around our family. Do not let the devil have his way wih our marriage. Crush him and silence him.