February 08, 2016
My wife and I have been struggling in our marriage for 15 years. We've attempted counseling multiple times without success. We have two young children with some special needs. Tonight, in anger, I said some things to my wife that were extremely hurtful and absolutely inappropriate. The "Christian" man. I called her names I've NEVER called her before, something I'd never dreamed I would do, especially to the woman I love. I have no idea what came over me. We're both exhausted. We've both been running in multiple directions, doing the best we can to take care of everything. My wife tends to be depressed and negative. The glass is usually half empty. I don't think she buys the Christian approach. I certainly didn't do anything to help that tonight. I've prayed for our marriage for so long. As much as I don't want to see our marriage end, I am at a complete loss as to what to do . . . except continue to pray. I'm not a quitter. I take responsibility for my actions. I've told my wife I was wrong and that I'm sorry. Still, it's very difficult to see a positive outcome for us. It seems like it will take a miracle to get this straightened out, yet I know God is able to do just that. Again. I work hard to live as a Christian and set an example for my kids. Tonight, I feel like I have failed. Thank you in advance for your prayers.