May 14, 2013
Thank you for your prayers. I have been tettering on divorce for almost a year. My husband just started going to counseling, about 3 times now, and I joined him for our first session together. I have met with 3 different counselors over the last year and they all said change is a process and he doesn't seem to be willing to admit he needs to change. Well, now he's admitted it and started counseling, however, I have been hurt so deeply by his emotional abuse that I am having a hard time opening up to him. Our last counselor (a Christian one) that we met with together, asked if I would be willing to give him another chance because he thinks he's ready to change. I don't know what to do, I was actually disappointed to hear him say that. I had come to the point where I was ready to move on. I said I would give it another chance. I pray all the time. I am so tense when I'm around him, he wants to jump back to snuggling and kisses and embracing and I just don't feel it. I don't want him to touch me. I know he loves me and he is acting like he wants to do what it takes. Will I ever get past the hurt he has inflicted? We have 3 daughters and I don't want them growing up thinking this is how men treat women! They need a good role model! Please pray for direction for me and my husband. I need God to show me the way he wants me to go. I am trying to have patience but I am emotional exhausted. Thank you again.