February 13, 2016
I am currently in residential treatment in Oconomowoc, WI. (Milwaukee area) I'm 25. and it's a center for young adults with mental illness. I have chronic major depression, anxiety disorder, and borderline personality disorder. God used this place over the summer to do a miracle in me. I learned so much and grew closer to Him... I was here for 2 1/2 months but when I got home my life fell apart. Immidiately one thing after another. I lost my very best friend. I started having severe health problems which the doctors think was a conversion reaction. I was out of work for 6 months and financially can't keep my head above water. I turn 26 in 3 weeks, and at that time will lose my health insurance (because I'm on my parents health insurance now). Badger care is my only real option but I'm worried about continuing my outpatient therapy. I'm back here in treatment after a suicide attempt on 1/18. I finally broke. I'm dealing with major loss, among other things. To top it off, tomorrow is the anniversary of the day I was raped. It will be 6 years. Sometimes it feels like 6 minutes. I'm in here, away from my loved ones, and of all days to have a post trauma, valentine's day. I feel completely alone. I'm still reeling from the trauma of losing my best friend. There's no pain like it. Praying God will show me the places that need to heal, give me the strength to work through them. I know that God is taking care of me-- but in the darkness it doesn't feel like enough, even though it should be. I feel completely confused and broken. Thank you in advance for prayers. I'm thankful for this site. It's the first time I've actually been on it.
February 11, 2016
Please pray for a beautiful young girl we'll call MK. MK is 12 and has been under a lot of stress in her family - losing her mom a few years ago and her grandfather a few months ago. She was so close to both of them. She's now losing her long hair and it's almost all short now (thinning/breaking off) and she has other physical symptoms too. Her doctors and specialists are unsure of what the problem is. Her dad is a single dad and is quite worried about MK and has a strong fear of losing her too. Please pray for wisdom for the doctors seeing MK; for MK and her father and their fears and anxieties; and for MK's health. Please pray she opens up about all she's been through. She doesn't want to talk about it and is internalizing all her stress. They are believers but feel far from God right now. Pray for their faith to be strengthened as well. They've asked for prayer, which is a good thing. They live across the country and I'll be visiting them in three weeks. Planning to pray over them while visiting and show them the love of Jesus while I'm there. Thank you for praying.