April 15, 2015
Last May, my husband was convicted of a crime he did not commit. But because of his PAST criminal history (before he became a father) the judge saw it fit to send him to prison for 3 years, not taking into account all of the wonderful & positive things he has done with his.life since having children. H has been gone almost a year now & for some reason this prison believes that I am going to "hinder his rehabilitation" and will not allow visitation between us. Our children are able.to.see him, thankfully, and my mother is allowed to take them in. I still drive them up there... 2 hours there, to sit in my car for 2-3 hours, just to turn around & drive back home another 2 hours, every other Saturday. And even tho it is killing me inside, I do it with a smile & words of encouragement. I feel that just because this prison say that I cannot see my husband, doesn't mean that my children don't deserve to see & keep their.relationships alive with their daddy. It is eating me up inside, I can't take it anymore, it's not fair, I did not do anything wrong, I deserve to see him too. I miss him more & more with each breath that I take... So please pray for us. Please pray that God's Will be done, I know He does not want me to suffer like this. Please pray that God will touch the administration of the prison & the DOC of WISCONSIN & allow them to see what they are doing to my family... I THANK YOU ALL FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!!
April 12, 2015
Seven months ago, I committed a horrible sin against my family (non-physical)and my wife and I have been separated ever since. We are both believers and we have a 2-year old son. I immediately repented of what I had done and have been in Christian counseling and Celebrate Recovery (I just got my 6 month chip) ever since. My wife and I are on good terms and talk on the phone about once a week, but she has not allowed me to see my son in more than 6 months. I had to temporarily move 500 miles away to live with my brother when I began having suicidal thoughts. I have been praying nonstop for months that God would convict my wife to work with me to save our marriage, but after a recent conversation when I asked her if I could make a trip to see my son for his second birthday, she threatened to file a restraining order against me, and made it evident that she has no intention of reconciling with me. At that point I came to terms with the fact that I will soon be facing divorce and a custody battle, and I began to focus my prayers on getting to see my son and redevelop my relationship with him. I was a very good dad before I got kicked out of the house. My dad died when I was a child, so I understand how important it is for me to be actively involved in my son's life. A few days ago, I pitched the idea to her of allowing me to see my son at a facility that offers supervised visitation. She didn't say yes, but sounded like she may actually be considering it. If she agrees, I'll probably need to look for a job in the area so I can move back to be near my son so I don't have to drive 500 miles every couple of weeks. The other day when I was praying on my drive to work, I had the radio turned on--something I never do. After praying to see my son, I started to pray for my wife to have a change of heart about our marriage. At that moment, a pastor came on the radio teaching that God is a God of restoration, and that nothing--no matter how impossible it may seem--is impossible for Him. I assume God was speaking to me about my marriage through this pastor, but my wife still has a very hard heart about reconciliation. At this point, I'm in a fog about how to pray. I do want God to restore our marriage--and believe it is His will to do so, but God is not going to override my wife's free will to choose. I feel as though God had just given me peace with the idea that I'll soon be divorced--so I'm afraid to get my hopes up again. Please pray for God to give me wisdom. Please pray that my wife will allow me to have a close relationship with my son--no matter if we stay married or end up divorced. And please pray that if at all possible, that God would soften my wife's heart and give her the desire to work with me to save our marriage. Also, please pray for wisdom about whether or not I should begin the process of moving back--I'm afraid of moving away from my support group. Thanks.