January 30, 2015
My husband and I found out today that we are expecting in early October. This is our third pregnancy, but our first two ended in miscarriages at 6 and 11 weeks. I have hypothyroidism that is under control with meds for past year and have issues with not making enough progesterone. The first pregnancy happened pre-thryroid diagnosis and was what finally led to the correct diagnosis after 15+ years of unexplained weight gain and issues. The second one happened when I was being weaned off the progesterone meds they gave me -- Dr says it was the baby, but he was fine 2 hours before miscarriage and was already having med weaning issues at that point. Even though we have this wonderful news, both my husband and I are having lukewarm responses -- not that we aren't potentially excited, but just don't want to get our hopes up and be so into it again only to have another loss. I know, that sounds horrible to say, but it is the truth. Please pray that I will be able to keep calm and not worry and that my body will be a good oven for this baby. Please pray for my husband and help him to be able to be excited about this little one. Please pray for my dr and the high-risk dr that I will likely be seeing down the road and the nurses, so that they do the Lord's will in treating me and prescribing that right treatments/timing of treatments or lack thereof so that this baby doesn't have problems too. Please pray for our family that has gone through the losses too -- especially my Dad who took it the hardest. And above all, please pray for this precious little baby that is no bigger than a poppy seed, that he or she may grow and develop properly and will be able to born healthy and strong in October. And if it be that this all is not the Lord's will, than I am comforted in knowing that this little one will join the brother and sister that are already in Heaven. Thank you!
January 26, 2015
I am greatly concerned for my grandchildren and their safety with someone in their life who is openly inappropriate and who did something enough that one child told about it, though it was not taken seriously. My daughter refuses to acknowledge the gravity of it and continues to allow him to have access to them and to increase his behaviors of grooming them by violating their space, bodies and creating "secrets;" a complicated family dynamic with her current boyfriend, which brings this unrelated "relative" into their lives. In the past, when I have opposed abusive boyfriends or situations she has cut me off from my grandchildren, who are currently falling through the cracks in very subtle ways at school because all appears good on the surface. I am exhausted and really need prayer support to cast this on the Lord and powerfully trust in the authority of the Holy Spirit. I was also a single mother raising her and I am struggling with a lot of guilt and inadequacy. Please agree with me in declaring that generational curses and cycles be broken and the Holy Spirit may send people and angels across their path, that my daughter will listen to and open her heart. And for her boyfriend to embrace Jesus, as he has been discouraging my grandson from his acceptance of Jesus, reading the Bible, and praying, effectively shutting down his faith and disapproving of it. Thank you.
January 26, 2015
Please pray for me for peace and faith. I am spiritually drained and literally feel sick to my stomach because my heart aches. I have raised my boys by myself and have given so much and have loved unconditionally through all their mistakes. I left everything to get them to a safe environment. I have worked 3 jobs to support us and have a home. It seems though I am now not good enough. Their Dad was extremely abusive and cruel to them has decided to in the last year to be a dad. I know this will only help them be a productive adult and have stood by and prayed he would not leave them hurting. He has remarried and has step children. My kids and their step siblings are in their twenties. My problem is my children now do not want to spend time with me because they have more fun at their Dad's. They told me it is no fun coming over to my cramped little apartment and that they have much more fun at their Dad's where all the kids can play games and party together. I'm tired of begging for them to be a part of my life and left broken hearted .