June 17, 2013
I have been caring for my husband due to dhis eteriorating health since 1999. It started w/ his being on chemo, then a severe car accident that left him diasbled . I'm disabled myself but work to provide for us the best I'm able. I think the pain meds, depression, mini strokes and the enclosed head injury are bringing on dementia or a personality disorder of some type. I don't want to leave him; II don't want doctors to make him into a zombie w/ Rx; I selfishly want my husband back. Probably never going to happen, ever. He wants to move to warmer climate because he's so afraid of becoming paraplegic, should the next level of his spine become involved. I need to trust the Lord and not focus on my circumstances. I think I'm angry about where my life has led. This is sin and I need God's perspective on this but can't seem to get my head and heart aligned. I don't know what the answer is, so I'm praying for clarity. I'm also praying to mind my own business and let the Lord work on my sin (and let the Lord deal w/ my husband's). I'm so overwhelmed that my memory and concentration are effected. I keep praying for Ps 46:10a to soak in.
June 14, 2013
I just started seeing a consler for several things and lately it's been very hard I have hit myself for a long time and stopped 11 months ago, I have been wanting to just end it all cause I can't take anymore. I have 3 beautiful kids and I can't leave them but my heart hurts so bad. I don't want to be so depressed and yet I can't get out of my slum. I have faith in God but I'm so very confused. Work is just work and I wish I can just quit and run away as far as possible without tellling anyone. Please all I ask is a prayer and encouragment that things will or have to get better because I'm very very close at hurting myself.
June 13, 2013
Prayers for myself and my son. Prayers that I may truly put all things that are worrying me and seeds of doubt in God's hands. Praise that God is faithful and prayers for continued health for our son. Thank you for your time and prayers.
June 13, 2013
Thank you so much for your prayers it means so much to me to see the 'someone prayed for you' email. So alone in everything that it's encouraging and eases the pain and lonliness. It says we are to pray without ceasing but also be be specific. So I am going to be very specific in my prayer list unite with me although maybe a bit trite. Lord as we unite locate us with your spiritual GPS ;) you know who I am and my family members and people I am requesting for as we pray unite us through the distance....where to or more are gathered.......... * SALVATION above all! for my immidiate family especially Seth, his wife Janneth and daughter Valerie. A supernatural home for them, secure his employment and advance him to grow and learn enough to open his small business. Also extended family where ever they may be in their life including an unknown brother that we have. Deliverance and healing for myself from all curse and occult throughout my life to be broken and lifted off. Cleanse me from all of this and damage done choices made direction life went because of these curses, brought on by specific people you know who they are locate them and deal with this. Return her house deeds and family homes to them especially 805. Homeownership again this year we are completely homeless, Job, finance, employment in the present then self employment while concurrently employed, also the chain of clinics sign over after Summons Complaint for all defendants involved especially the three primary ones; that it be heard, criminally civilly processed immidiately ( God knows the details and vengence is his not mine) Touch my finances Lord I worked so hard and made these businesses single handedly and with Your Hand. Only You know what I mean. Locate and bring conviction, at least spiritual one, to the Herrera family for sexual abuse sodomny of baby infant up to 3.5 yars of age purposely without parent knowing and also ridiculing young mother/parents and humiliating harrassing doing all sorts of evil for no reason other than they were Holy and good. Also for the woman that helped them Nora, her daugthers Rachel and Liz to this day. Also Roxana, Laura and JohnCarl for counterparts and aiding. Only God knows how to deal with this, by may godly authorities also intervene or who ever God may use to bring these ppl to what they have done out of shear pervertion and cruelty to ruin.
June 10, 2013
Please pray for me to find rest. I am a full-time working mother of 3 and am battling insomnia, which is preventing me from caring for my kids and husband as I should. My husband has been out of work for a year now and is doing all he can to find work and help with the kids. He owned a successful business before the economic downturn, but is now unemployed. I've had insomnia during stressful times off and on throughout my life, but it was always myself alone who suffered. Now I have 3 children under the age of 6 who need their mom and a husband who needs his wife to encourage him. There's defintely a spiritual battle at play - God has always been the great love of my life, but in recent times He feels so far away and indifferent. Intellectually I know that is not his nature, but I am so weary I cannot make sense of it all. Thank you for your prayers.