November 25, 2014
What am I supposed to say? I've been depressed for 6 years now.. I've tried killing myself 12 time, the last one was nearly successful. I was in a coma fora couple days. But more than my depression slowly killing me, it's slowly killing everyone around me. My mom cries all the time now because of me. My dad is pissed off and withdrawn because of me. My sister is angry and starting to rebel BECAUSE OF ME. My friends are sick with worry for me. They are all better off if I leave. If I'm dead, they won't have to worry about me 24/7 and they can get on with their lives. I'm pulling everyone down with me here! I need to die in order to free them. Will God forgive me for taking my own life? I don't want to have to kill myself but I feel like this is my only option. -TH
November 24, 2014
I have found myself in a few dark places and I guess the Lord knew as my best friend called me to go to church. As I walked across the street I thought to myself, why am I even here? Am I going to be thankful for the fact that I have no money to pay my rent, no income, no unemployment, I have no money for gas for my truck? Thankful for the chick who hit my car and has not paid to fix it, thankful for the fact that I have zero funds to cover any of my bills? Thankful for my husbands infidelity that is causing so much stress in our marriage, thankful for clients that DONT pay? As I sat down and listened to the sermon it was about Thanks/giving and how we should give thanks and give to those in need and all I could think was I am one of those people, my family is on the brink of destruction, i am one phone call away from eviction and I am still praying and trying to keep my husband from going off the deep end, sheltering our child from our ever growing complicated lives and I need to know where God is in all of this. Lord I NEED HELP!! I was told that no adultery goes unpunished, but Lord why why why?? With all that we have gone through and experienced why Lord do we have to keep getting knocked down I am drowning! The infidelity is eating at me, the possible pregnancy is eating at me, my miscarriage is eating at me, my lack of income, job prospects or clients is eating at me. I am trying Lord. I am asking for your grace, your movement in my situation. Make ways Lord, move the mountains, protect my marriage and family, help us to hear you and walk along the path you have for us, bless us with abundance, open doors for us Lord and seal the doors that should have never been open. Be with my husband Lord, heal and help him. Please break the generational curse that is upon him, fee him Lord. Help us to love one another how you intend for a husband and wife too. I pray and believe that no weapons made against us will prosper, but Lord that is all that has been happening. Guide him along the path that you have for him. Help him with his addictions and his anger. Lord he needs you. We need you Lord, we are in a very desperate situation and we are drowning. In Jesus' Name I Pray.
November 22, 2014
I never thought a heart could actually break, but mine has. The long story doesn't matter. I just feel crushed, overwhelmed and broken. I need strength through your prayers as I cant seem to pray for myself. Thank you.
November 22, 2014
Please pray for my family and I. My husband and I are both suffering addiction and I never want to go back to using again. I have almost 3 days clean and my children need me... Please this isn't too much of a struggle providing for my children in my crucial time of need myself. I have no other family really and no car and we are losing our home. Please pray we don't lose our home also. Lord thank you for all you've given me already.
November 20, 2014
It seems like no matter what we do we are always falling behind in life. We have OK jobs to get by. I work two jobs and I'm a full time student. We have two beautiful girls that we will do anything for. We live in a two bedroom apartment. We are doing everything we can just to get by. I'm grateful that my daughters are healthy, I'm grateful that we have this little two bedroom apartment that keeps us from the cold. I'm thankful that we have jobs which helps puts food on the table and pay bills. But it seems like we never are swimming above water, always drowning no matter what we do. I have been applying to get a better paying job, no answer. Such a disappointment. I'm a hard work, I truly do my best when I'm at work. I have been at my current job for the past 7 years, last time I called in sick was a couple of years ago, and it was because my daughter was sick. I wish they really see who I am. All the jobs that I have applied for are jobs I know I can do. It just feels like one disappointment after another, when will we see the light at the end of our tunnel? I keep telling myself, it's not the right job for me, GOD has something else plans. But nothing else comes up. I just need a better paying job to help us get by and not work two jobs. Please help me, help my family. I just applied for two new jobs, please pray I get one of them. Thank you GOD and prayer works for listening. AMEN.