June 13, 2013
I have been struggling with depression and now anxiety now that I have opened up about the years of sexual abuse I have endured by my father ( no one knew tell I opened up about it). I feel that it would have been better to just not have said anything cause since I opened up I am having nightmares everynight and flash backs, anxiety, panic attacks and fear of going out in public even though I am safe for now. I know people say it's not my fault but I feel like it is. I am afraid that I am always going to be afraid of personal relationships with men and that I will always have the nightmares and flash backs even though my therapist says it will get better over time
June 13, 2013
Please pray that God has favor on our finances and jobs that we may be in a situation where we can bless people with giving and still be able to meet our financial obligations of two college aged children.
June 13, 2013
Thank you so much for your prayers it means so much to me to see the 'someone prayed for you' email. So alone in everything that it's encouraging and eases the pain and lonliness. It says we are to pray without ceasing but also be be specific. So I am going to be very specific in my prayer list unite with me although maybe a bit trite. Lord as we unite locate us with your spiritual GPS ;) you know who I am and my family members and people I am requesting for as we pray unite us through the distance....where to or more are gathered.......... * SALVATION above all! for my immidiate family especially Seth, his wife Janneth and daughter Valerie. A supernatural home for them, secure his employment and advance him to grow and learn enough to open his small business. Also extended family where ever they may be in their life including an unknown brother that we have. Deliverance and healing for myself from all curse and occult throughout my life to be broken and lifted off. Cleanse me from all of this and damage done choices made direction life went because of these curses, brought on by specific people you know who they are locate them and deal with this. Return her house deeds and family homes to them especially 805. Homeownership again this year we are completely homeless, Job, finance, employment in the present then self employment while concurrently employed, also the chain of clinics sign over after Summons Complaint for all defendants involved especially the three primary ones; that it be heard, criminally civilly processed immidiately ( God knows the details and vengence is his not mine) Touch my finances Lord I worked so hard and made these businesses single handedly and with Your Hand. Only You know what I mean. Locate and bring conviction, at least spiritual one, to the Herrera family for sexual abuse sodomny of baby infant up to 3.5 yars of age purposely without parent knowing and also ridiculing young mother/parents and humiliating harrassing doing all sorts of evil for no reason other than they were Holy and good. Also for the woman that helped them Nora, her daugthers Rachel and Liz to this day. Also Roxana, Laura and JohnCarl for counterparts and aiding. Only God knows how to deal with this, by may godly authorities also intervene or who ever God may use to bring these ppl to what they have done out of shear pervertion and cruelty to ruin.
June 10, 2013
We where evicted! We are a large family and have until tomorrow 9pm to get everything out. The sheriff served us the papers Saturday evening at 9pm. We tried to talk to the landlord but he just wants us out! I have no idea honestly what we did to make him so angry that he would want us out! and would put 9 people on the street! God answered our prayer with a storage unit to store all our stuff but we really need a miracle for a place to live........We need a 4 bedroom by tomorrow before 9pm or else we will be homeless. There is no help in WI at the moment, the shelters are full and they do not have emergency housing for families this large. I was on the phone for a month now trying to find a place and never had any luck and now we have 24hrs to move out! Im scared! I have prayed even through this. But my husband has lost all faith , he has cursed the lord and questioned him why?!?! I hate to see him like this and it bothers me to hear him speak like this to God! I am praying for some kind of miracle. Please if anyone would please pray for us I am very grateful for your prayers. I just hope God hears it and gives us a miracle!
June 10, 2013
I need prayers to lift my spirit and easy my heavy burdens. Recently it feels as if everything in my life is falling apart. Weird things keep happening that are out of my control. I am not a fan of drama, and this past week has been just that...and horrible. I feel as though there are no honest and good people out there anymore. I had a refinance deal fall through because the bank didn't file the correct paperwork (after being told we would close in April....the whole deal was shady), our current mortgage holder didn't pay our real estate taxes and didn't tell us (received a notice that we have to pay quite a bit by the end of July that we do not have), and my husband and I were accused of something we didn't do (a couple of high school girls made up a story to my daughter's high school softball coach that we wrote an anonymous letter about the coach). We may have to hire a lawyer and can't afford one (for the whole house deal). I am trying to finish college and find a job. I just can't help but wonder what I am doing wrong? I keep praying for clarity and guidance in my life. My heart is so over burdened that it hurts. I know I have to give it all to God, but I also know that God gives us the knowledge to figure things out in life for ourselves as well. I just want to get this all over with and be able to spend happy times with my family. This stress is really hard for all of us to deal with. God show me the light and guide my way. Keep my feet from staying from the path that you want me to take. Hear my cries for help and answer my prayers with your glory. Amen