April 11, 2014
We where married over 20 yrs with many trial and he chose to not move with us. Because of circumstances we have not been together as husband and wife for over 3 years. We both contributed to our problems but he chose to not try anymore. We have a wonderful special needs child. I have been convicted about 8 months ago that I had never been his Help Meet that God asked me to be. I want to try but he has given up on us and started to move on, yet he has not filed for divorce. I am not his conscious but I don't think he is living a Godly life. I am trying so hard to be faithful in all ways. I have asked him for a chance to talk so we can either try to restore our marriage or for him to free me yet he has not responded. I can't nag him so I wait for him to respond. He is a good father and a wonderful man but the sin needs to be dealt with. Prayer is that God would bring him to his knees and if that requires something that be devastating, then let God do what he needs to in order to bring him to the foot of Christ for support, do it however God chooses, do it speedily. That all of his sinful activities become so bitter to the taste and that sin is no longer fun but painful. Mostly pray that he returns and we restore our marriage with GOD in the Center. Prayer for me would be - for Wisdom in my behavior, speech and attitude so they are not done by hurt or resentment but only as God would have a wife act. And that I would stay focused on Christ and not allow my flesh any control over me.