April 08, 2015
I I am sorry for posting a request again so soon but I feel that I really need intercession. I backslid and turned from The LORD and back into homosexuality. He delivered me when He saved me (sometimes I wonder if I am born again) but after some tribulations I got puffed up with pride and angry with Him about my life I fell back in that sin. He showed me it was pride that was the root of my backsliding and I fasted and humbled myself repented and He delivered me again. My situation now is similar but worse than that previous backsliding. I have been puffed up with pride and He has been reaching out to me to fast, humble myself, repent and seek His face but instead I have been playing games with Him and been in willful Sin. I am so numb, dead, and full of fear inside of me. I stopped reading the Bible and listening to sermons and I feel like giving up. He can do anything and he healed my backsliding before and delivered me from this demon twice before. It's very hard for me to repent, humble myself, fast, pray, get back in the word and seek His face. I have been really depressed and lonely. I know what I need to do but I dont. I know I am under deep satanic bond age and I need to do what is written in James 4. I know the LORD wants me to submit to Him and draw nigh to Him and fast a pray and seek His face. I need to stop playing games with Him also. Thank you all for praying for me and the notes. My email is firstname.lastname@example.org if you like to contact me. Please pray for Godly sorrow, Holy Ghost conviction, to flood my heart and mind. Please pray for my repentance toward God and faith unto The Lord Jesus Christ. Please pray for the deliverance e, healing, return, and restoration for this prodigal son. I am really lonely, sad, and depressed and full of myself. I am so dead and unhappy inside. God bless you all and thank you for being there for me.