September 17, 2014
I have recently left an abusive relationship that lasted 4 years. My boyfriend has always been controlling and jealous and emotionally abusive, but things got worse when his 8 year old son died a year and a half ago (so he needs prayers too!) Our relationship has deteriorated steadily to the point where my son (who lives with us) spends most of his day hiding in his room with his head buried to not hear the fighting. He belittles me, accuses me of everything possible, demeans me, threatens me, lies to me, everything that can destroy a relationship. I have stuck with him for so long not only because I love him and believe that I made a commitment to him but because I was always scared to leave. When things got physically violent, I stayed at a shelter but he found me and I have always tried to protect the people that shelter me when I leave. I have gotten to the end of my line..... I cannot live like this anymore. I cannot go to church without accusations, work meetings are out of the question, going to the store without him is a big no-no. I don't eat or sleep well because my anxiety has increased to debilitating levels. I left him yesterday and am staying with my parents. My son is torn, he was just getting used to a new school (he's now in middle school), but knows the relationship is toxic for both of us. I need prayers to stay on the right path, to keep making decisions that are healthy for my son and for myself. Thank you.