November 27, 2013
I will be spending a total of about 6 hours with my dtr over Thanksgiving and Christmas combined. It is so hard to be alone when everyone else is celebrating with family. Life doesn't seem fair sometimes and maybe I am feeling a little sorry for myself but since my son was killed life as I knew it died. Then a few years later I got divorced and have pretty much been alone since then. I feel like I will always be alone. I know God never leaves my side but I could really use a hug from someome here. I don't feel like I am important....at least to anyone here in this world. I think I am a good person... I try to be! .I treat others better than I treat myself even. I "do" all of things that I think God wants me to do...I am a very loving sensitive person. I care so much about others safety and happiness. Do I even deserve to be loved? I am not sure of anything right now. I am beginning to think that there are people who are meant to be alone and not fullfilled. I think I am one of them. My emotional life is so hard. I just go through the motions every day. same old same old. I want to believe that there is more to life than what I am living right now but am losing faith that I even belong here. My faith is strong but I see myself slipping away from God. I don't pick up my bible anymore, I don't pray like I used to. Everyone tells me to volunteer on Christmas but that won't take everything else away from my heart. I will still be alone in my heart. I don't mean to be a debbie downer, I am just in a very hard place right now. I don't even know what I need prayers for but if you would like to pray for me I would much appreciate it. I wish all of you a very happy thanksgiving and a glorious Christmas. Thank you
November 24, 2013
LodGod, touch my Telomerase Enzyme DNA that You created, touch this in my body. Reverse the age curse and renew me like the eagle .Weak pelvic muscles aback to strong pelvic muscles. Healing and return of dental bone teeth.