December 15, 2014
Lord, where are you? I need a miracle, movement some grace in my life. I have stayed strong and have prayed. I have stood for my husband and my family and slowly have watched as everything has fallen down around me. Our rent still has not been paid and here we are another month is due in a few days, our power was off, I have no new clients coming in, my car insurance was canceled. I have no relief Lord and I am begging for you to move in my situation. Christmas for my daughter is not going to happen, she understands the meaning of Christmas, but Lord she is only 6 she never asks for anything and at this point she will be lucky to have a roof over her head, but she doesn't understand that especially after just getting settled. My marriage Lord is a struggle, I pray that you can keep your angels in the midst of our union. Give us peace Lord, unify us. Cover us with your blood and grace. His mistress is still holding on Lord, still wanting my husband to remove himself from our marriage. Still hoping that there is a future for them Lord, put people in her life that can give her direction. Release her from our marriage, union and lives. Harden his heart towards her and give him the strength to see the error of his ways, our lives have continued on a downward spiral, since she has been a part of our union. Lord open his eyes and help him to heal from his infidelity, help us all to heal. Please Lord keep your arms around my husband. Protect him, He needs you, be his guide, let your voice be louder, quiet the lions that seek him and heal him of the demons that stalk him, his addictions, his frustrations. Lord please be with me as my thoughts have turned to very dark, very desperate places as of late, things that I am not proud of. Lord I seek your forgiveness and ask that you cover me with a peace that passes all understanding. Please be present here Lord. Lord bless my company with clients so that I can support my family, so that I can keep a roof over their heads, so that we can pay the fees for my husbands CDL license so that he may resume working and so that he can feel a little better, so there are lights will not have to be off and our little one can have a little Christmas. Lord our situation is desperate and depressing. I don't want him to turn to wrong ways to keep a roof over our heads. Lord I am begging for you to help us. We need your help Lord, please move. Open doors for us and seal ones that should never be opened. Give us Hope Lord for I have lost mine. Please Lord. In your name I Pray.