December 12, 2013
My mom was recently diagnosed with an inoperable brain cancer. She starts chemo and radiation next week to keep the tumor under control and add to the quality of her life. I ask for prayers of a miracle that the tumor can be completely disolved and we/she can enjoy her for many more years!!! Thank you and God Bless!
December 10, 2013
No matter how hard I try at my job, it is not enough. I'm not allowed to speak to the clients or talk about my family. It is a very hostile environment. I took this job to help others. I am not allowed to do so. It is so stressful that I have been home the last two days ill because of my job. Praying that the Lord will lead me to a new and better job, soon.
December 10, 2013
Dear Lord, Please help me to change my attitude. Christmas is a hard itme of year for me....for many reasons. I rejoice and celebrate the birth of Your son, but I'm discouraged by how commercial and material the season has become. For that reason, I find myself becoming a Scrooge. I hate that I've become this person. This year from January until now, has brought some new and not-so-pleasant challenges, and I hate that my attitude has become that of a victim. I don't recognize myself anymore. I'm Your child, and I believe that You have designed me for more than my current situation. Please, Lord, help me to tame my tongue. I don't want to deter anyone from You, because of how I feel. I don't want to push people away from me...I want to draw them in because they see You in me. Please Lord, change my heart. These snarky words and comments are a window of what's in my heart...and I need You to change my heart and perspective, so that I may sing Your praises no matter what the enemy throws at me. I believe that the sweet girl that you made 20-some years ago, still resides in me, battered and bruised by the world. Lord, please help that girl to grow past the anger, hurt, and bitter to come to the forefront, for You. Help me to bring Christmas to those who have no hope and joy....not just for 1 month, but for years to come. I need you Lord to change my attitude, heart, thoughts, and words....and to take charge of this vessel. Thank you for the gift of Your son, and Your endless grace and mercy that we don't deserve. Amen
December 09, 2013
Dear Lord, How did I get here? My life feels like a series of mishaps and poor career making decisions. This year seems to be the worst yet, in terms of my depression and sadness. I confess that I've become angry at the world...even You. I realize that my own choices in college and even in my profession have lead me this far, but God, when will it turn around? I've spent the last year in prayer desperately waiting and watching to see where I should go or what I should do, but I can't hear You. All I've ever desired was to be a wife and mother, and yet here I sit at 27 year olds mourning my singleness. I'm embarassed to admit that I have come to hate Christmas, because it reminds me just how alone I am, and just how low I've let myself sink into depression over it. I have become a recluse. I go to work and come home, eat and sleep. That's it. I have to believe that You made me for more than this seemingly meaningless life that I'm living, but I'm so bound by the echoes of my past failures and decisions that I'm crippled to move forward. I find myself bitter and angry watching my single friends who aren't saved live in sin and get everything that they want....husbands, houses, children, and a life of comfort. I keep wondering when my life will take off and when I'll be rewarded for my diligence and for refusing to live in sin, but when I question family members about it...I get lectured about making poor decisions in my career and relationships. I feel like I'm getting fired upon from all angles, and all I want is to have peace, joy, happiness, and fulfillment. I'm so tired of feeling like a failure because I'm not self-sufficient, and because I'm still single. Please, help me to overcome these feelings, so that I might not forget the true meaning of Christmas, because of my anger, hurt, and bitterness. I don't want to be the woman I've become, but I don't know where or what to do to change.
December 08, 2013
Dear God in Jesus Christ: C.K. is your child and C.K. desperately needs God's Divine Intervention in C.K.'s life all the more. Please Holy Spirit of God The Father, encourage and strengthen C.K. as the destructive, lying voices of the evil one and his minions roar - their deadly, poisonous, venomous words which C.K. needs to ignore. Thank you in Jesus Christ .