Stregnth
I post many prayer requests on here and I get the emails when someone prays. And I just want to say thank you to everyone that prays. I pray for those people in return for all of their own needs to be met. My requests are usually for my husband. But this time I really need stregnth. I thought I could see hope in my marriage, however, I learned through my husband's sister that he is using drugs and having multiple affairs. Some of which have been going on for years. I knew he was an alcoholic and he admitted to one affair. But I had no clue of the extent of what he was doing. I am absolutely numb. I asked him to leave our home. His actions show that he has no intention of cleaning up his life. He told me the reason why he treats me badly is because I allow it. My feeling is that I do not have to "allow it" anymore. I prayed for him fervently for so long. And tried to be the best wife I could, not nagging, or even asking anything of him at all. The more Iove I poured love into him, the worse the situation got. At this time please pray that I have stregnth. And that I hear from the Holy Spirit on what the Lord would want for me to do. Because unfortunately, I can't even find the words to pray for anything, especially not him anymore, and I know that is wrong. I should be able to pray no matter what. I just feel so crushed and very, very angry. This affects everything. We have four children. We have to leave our home and move in with my parents because I can't pay the bills on my salary and child support. I have to get a second job just to maintain the bills until our house can sell. The kids are hurt. They don't understand. I know God has a plan. Please also pray for my husband that God will get ahold of him and bring his deliverance from all things ungodly. And for me to find forgiveness for my own sake. And God's will to be done. Thank you. God Bless.