problem with husband#3
Oh my goodness,I've been living in this mess for years & years & he just won't stop! My oldest molested my other kids & my husband claimed to see it was his dad & his family that were causing all sorts of issues for our family,but he just was saying it,he never ment it.he has threatened to kill me & my kids & has done horrific things to me in the past & my kids,yet I thought I need 2stay,God would want that & it would give my kids safety. He's going to his parents,the ones who totally control him.he's going to the cchild that's molested 2of our kids.he himself failed a poly on touching my daughter case was dissmissed because they couldn't understand my son on the video.Everything about this guy has been a lie. He says he's taking the accounts direct deposit away from me shutting the phone off & is going to make me have to take him to court to protect my kids. He has a long history of issues but for some reason I always end up the one hurting,suffereing or punished.either way things go I'm punished!he gets away with everything as we sit & suffer day in & out. He went to jail for 12 hrs & I thought sure enough he would learn but he won't. God keeps helping him out. He is not a Christian,never has been.claims he is,acts perfect in front of others & then is the meanest jerk to me & my kids.I say to him everyday I want him to leave,he doesn't deserve us & he calls me names tells me to shut up,that I'm no christian for speaking to him that way & he's just here because he has no other place to go. He tells me I'm nasty,tells me nobody would want me.I say mean things too.he says its all my fault.am I crazy?do women just sit and remain so quiet when they're being treated wrongly by their spouse?he's never loved me.wants me dead & only stays because he knows he has a history,but now he has me on recording because I was upset.I was hurt by him not caring about these kids at least,not only me.he wanted me to call the police,he wouldn't leave on his own.now I've totally acted like a fool.I didn't swear or scream but I behaved immaturely & it was wrong.I said I will never love him(which is true,I've been out of love for a very long time)I said I will fight to keep my kids from him & the fact that the kids were hitting him & asking him to leavewhile I was asking him to save us the trama of having the police over,he refused & just kept taping us! The officer saw it & all the while my husband kept saying "well at least you witnessed it,you saw it,I'm glad you saw what I have to live with" I have no clue what the officer thought but my husbands always plays this game.he's a jerk,gets me upset & then tapes me while he remains composed. I just want God to take me & my kids somewhere far away from him,his family & the oldest boy who he allowed to molest my other kids! Please please please,I need you Jesus to help me! You heard it all! You saw everything,please don't let him hurt us anymore! Lord you say it is sad when a husband doesn't love his wife. That I'm supposed to be respected as the weaker partner so that his prayers are not hindered. He doesn't care! Please do something to protect us,please Lord!