Thirteen years ago, 8 wks after the birth of our 4th child, my husband came home stating he no longer wanted to be married. Five years later He would remarry and thus began the death of our family. My children were so pressured to choose between parents. It very quickly became obvious that loving or having a relationship with me meant losing their father. My children are now 21-19-17-13. Not only have the relationships between myself and my 3 older children been cut off, but the siblings are cut off from each other. I do not know the whereabouts or situation of my 19yo and every week I pray I his heart will turn toward home and he would reach out to me. It has been 6yrs since I have been able to hug my child whom I loved and cherished. My 17yo regularly communicates contempt and disgust for me. My oldest and I reconciled but he struggles with drugs in an attempt to cover the pain of being lied to and recruited to participate in making false allegations against me. My youngest suffers the pain of abandonment from his father and siblings because he lives with me (the enemy). Requesting prayer tonight that my children and myself will all be reconciled and be able to build new relationships and begin making new memories. God is faithful and true and His hand on my life has sustained me thru these very painful years.