July 20, 2012
Please pray for my husband and myself. He is having a mid-life crisis...questiioning who he is in every area. He is saying he's been lying all his life and just doing what everyone else wanted him to do, and he cracked under the pressure and got involved in an afffair at work. He feels like he's played the part of the good Christian husband to a tee....while feeling inside that it was all a lie. I believe he is very lost and deceived by the enemy right now. This is not the man I married 16 years ago. He desperately needs a God encounter. He is saying he has no interest in rebuilding trust or our marriage and thinks it'd be best if we weren't married...that he's the one who's not good enough for me. He's sorry for hurting me, and feels that we should just get all of the hurt out of the way now rather than dragging it out and making it more painful. We have 3 beautiful children who are confused. They don't know the details, but I have been up front enough to let them know that daddy is lost and confused and we need to be praying. I've also shared with my daugthers that there has been a deep hurt and broken trust. I've made it very clear that I love my husband and want him to come home. I don't know how to do this, what steps to take. I am trying to walk through this as a faithful daugther of God....this is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I'm trying to show my children that God is our refuge and He will always be with us and faithful as we trust him even in these hard times. But I am dying inside. It hurts so badly, and I can't understand why.....and I can't escape feelings of not being good enough....of being abandoned...the fear of what will happen to me and my children if divorce actually happens. MY HUSBAND NEEDS A GOD REVELATION....A "PAUL" OR "JACOB" ENCOUNTER WITH GOD. I believe God gave me Jeremiah 31:11 as a promise.....and I am praying that daily. Thank you for praying.