a hurtful text from my estranged husband
February 10, 2012
PLEASE, PLEASE pray for our marriage as we will have been separated 2 years on 3-27. Eddie "pretended" to be a Christian as we dated for four years. He was the drummer in the worship band, the in-church counselor, had devotions in the morning by phone with me and more! He made a 100% turn around when we married. He was VERY abusive in EVERY way and I thought I was losing my mind as a result. I've asked him forgiveness as I see other areas that I should have been more Christlike. However I got a text this morning saying, "I am truly sorry, but you still don't get IT (He had the last word capitalized.). I've done my part so God and Eddie will have to do their parts. Eddie has NEVER apologized for all the very sick things that he did to me. Don't get me wrong as I LOVE sex and I did more than Eddie did! However the counselor told me that the way Eddie was treating me sexually at the end was totally disrespectful. Thank you for listening and PLEASE pray! I've memorized Mark 10:6-10 and try to say it daily. I just heard at 6:00 this morning the song "As For Me and My House" by John Waller as I was intensely praying for Eddie, for my need of wisdom, for skilled communication (Eddie says that I can't communicate.) like Moses prayed for, and for my listening to the Lord and Eddie without being defensive.