to move forward ( update )
March 04, 2012
on feb. 25th i posted for prayer. god bless you all and those that send a message i can't begin to tell you how much it helps me , i go back and reread them.to date we have meet face to face, and within 2 days my oldest son and i went over for dinner. i got the chance to answer there question as to why i did leave and answered them truthful that i did as the lord said. and 1 day when they come to know the lord he may ask them to do something and it will be 1 of the hardest things they do. her 2 youngest boys want to continue talking and see my boys and i. the oldest 1 is not ready yet. as for her she believes that she doesn't deserve for god to forgive her.i would love to marry this woman for my feeling have only grown through this time and to be the dad those boys need in their lives and i know this isn't just about me but all but all of us and are god.i admit i'm still not sure how far the lord is taking this relationship,and she friend request me on facebook, but says were not friends yet . i know this takes time.she believes that she is just better off a lone .as i continue to pray to know the answer of how far the lord is taking this relationship. if i look at what she says then i have my answer, however i know my answers come from are lord,i pray for clarity in this for all of us, that god will open her heart to him that he is a forgiving god one full of love,and mercy praise ,honor, and glory to are father in heaven for all he has done so far. i pray for are fears and doubt to be taken away she just waiting for me to crush the boys again.
